yeah so i myspace now and i really dont want peoples to read it, well certain peoples so i am just ranting on here for the night.

Update...

Jake and i broke up almost 2 months ago

I have a new boyfriend

He did have a gf but she was weird so he told her i was pg... no i am not

Um he tried to kiss me today, but i backed off

He stole my bf's # from my sis and wants to call him

Um and he basically asked me out again!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHH... so i officially decided 6 days is way too long to wait therefore i am finishing bartending school hopefully wed, and leaving thur. 3 days earlie.... seeing that certain boyz dont ever check this blog i feel oay writing here... any advice peoples????

So what do you do when everything is falling apart in front of you and you are unable to pick up the peices? When the weather outside mimics the emotions within. When every time you are touched you feel an emptiness yet too much filling it, so much that you want to jump out of your skin. When life feels like it is never going to end, yet when it does all that is left is doubt and regret. How do you forget what you have lost and try to live with what you have left? When life doesn't give up on you but you give up on life?

Just a couple questions I am asking today!

~Love me~

I have the headache form hell, not to mention i havent talked to any of my friends in weeks and to top it all off i am so ticked at my entire family that talking to them doesnt evven seem worth it. So what do I do. Have a nervous break down which just adds on to my already agonizing head ache. And I have to find a second job to help pay for shit!!! argg, i wanna go to bed!!! good night!

~love me~

I know that with time wounds get smaller and things are easier to live with. I can cope with things some days and others are harder. I get alittle sad sometimes because I know someone else has what for a long time was mine. But he isn't anymore and that is for the best. Some times I remember the little things like being suprized with roses, or saying how cute I was when I was really hideous, but Those things don't matter. I have someone who sees my beauty even when I am full of tears and mucus in my bed. He doesn't care as long as I am okay. Sure gestures are nice once in a while but they are just material objects and don't really matter in the long run. It is about the love behind them, and that is more than enouh for me...

Okay quick update,

I am now a live in nanny at jakes sisters,

I have a new car

and hey my life is boring cuz nothing else is new,

except I saw my liz, kari, molly, and geoff!!! yeah, and I am setting my 10th grade sis up with a senior, wish me luck on that one

Goodnight

~Love me~